Today while I was sitting in Nyinthun, I noticed something I'd never seen before. In the small shrine room there are actually two shrines, one on the left and one on the right, what I noticed about them today was that the shrine pedestal to my left was orange while the one to my right is white. Never seen that before, I always thought they were the same colour. Even if someone had swapped the pedestal, I'm not sure I would have paid attention to such a thing, something made me Notice.
Nick talked this week about the moment of noticing. That instant where you realize you've gone somewhere and that you're not focusing on the breath. This has started to happen to me in my everyday life. A few weeks ago, I noticed a church on the road I live on. I haven't been in this place a long time, about 5 months now I think, but I'd never seen this church before. I looked up, and said to myself, wow, where did they get this church from?
Sitting meditation has definitely set the stage for me to wake up to the world around me and actually SEE things, things I never noticed before.
I begin to wonder where that moment of waking up occurs. Like Nick said, you can't tell what happened, one second you're off on your story, the next you realize you're not focusing. Something in our bodies is causing that realization to fire. My theory is that we can't find that moment because it isn't a conscious thought which triggers it; it's part of the hardware of our minds. Sitting meditation seems to wake up that interrupt mechanic and pull us out of our stories.
I'm going to continue to sit and I'll let you guys know what else I manage to notice, and maybe, hopefully, learn more about the way my mind works~
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